My Identity Crisis

In my very first blog I wrote about how my name is not really Bailey Sebert, and it may have gone unnoticed to all who clicked on the link to my blog in the past few days, but I’m no longer Bailey Sebert.  I decided to change my name on the Google Plus account linked to my blog for two reasons. (1) I finally learned how to do it! (2) I was having a meltdown about who I am as a person in this world and I really felt disconnected going by a pseudonym.  I love my name and who I am and I felt I was being disloyal to myself by choosing to name myself something other than Julia Grizanti.  Heck, I can even Google my name and see things other than my social media accounts (which I would obviously have to list as my greatest accomplishment in life so far). 

Lately I have been feeling very much like a stereotypical teenager.  I’m totally lost about what I’m supposed to be doing with my life, and I have no idea if my goals in life are even achievable.  I have been told by so many people two versions of what to expect for my future. One being, that I need to find a backup plan for when my pipe dreams inevitably crumble and fall to the pitiless floor of Fate’s dungeon. The second being, that if I work hard enough I can achieve any and everything.  While I always hope that is true, I expect the first reality, and I work towards a slightly different one; a future where I find a happy medium.  I want success, who doesn’t?  Yet I am entirely willing to get beaten around by the world if it means I haven’t given up.

I know Julia is the type of person who believes in all of that, but I have no idea who Bailey even is.  I don’t know if I would ever be comfortable being someone other than Julia Grizanti. 

Thank you for taking the time out of your day to read this.  I really appreciate it. 

-Julia